Immboalizer! the patience builder

It's been a while since my last blog post... and you might wonder why...

It's not that I haven't had some cool things happen to me in the past weeks.. or month.. or that I have been so ubberly busy.. well I have been busy.. but not overly ubberly busy.. its mostly because I was waiting to hear about my knee..

I injured my knee about 8 weeks ago.. yes its really been that long! :( My knee had been bugging me when i ran for a while, but not overly bad just kind of like a dull ache, and then painful durning the rest of the day and it kept getting worse... I ignored it for a while.. I thought it had to get better.. I thought maybe it was just runners knee.. to much running.. I thought it would get better with a little rest, so I rested it for 3 weeks.. no running.. WOW! what a challenge.. I continued to swim.. which was good, but not as good as running.. and then I had to face realitly..

I made an appointment in Sports Med.. I think they know me by name when they see me now.. but anyway.. they are pretty nice. and I couldn't get in for another 3 weeks.. 3 MORE weeks.. are you kidding me!! What a feat, waiting.. and waiting some more just to see what was wrong.. and hoping that it was something that was easily fixeable..

They first thought it was a Meniscus tear.. which would mean I would have to have surgery.. but they did a MRI to check it out.. to my luck.. it was not a Meniscus tear.. but A partially torn MCL which I guess has similar symptoms.. but not as bad.. cuase it doesnt' need surgery!! yay!

The downfall... I have to wear a Styling! tealish greenish cast like thing on my leg for the next 2 - 3 weeks.. to reduce inflamation, and allow it to heal.. Which also means that I can't do anything, no swimming, running, weights... its all out! I thought.. it wouldn't be that bad. but this thing is not fun.. by any means! and its only day 2!

Its hard to go up and down stairs.. I never realized how much you bent your knee in a day.. its even worse to sit at a desk all day.. so i've rigged up an amazing contracption at work, a chair on one side to put my leg up on.. and my keyboard all shifted, as well as my monitor..

Its hard to use the bathroom! Its hard to do little things.. and you can't just do things fast any more.. I've been reflecting on this a lot.. A year ago, I was at Faithwalkers, and one of the things I asked God to grow me in this year was Patience... I thought I had grown quite a bit, I was no longer extremly annoyed when someone didn't play a card at a moments notice, or they weren't fast enough... but I am learning quickly, that I have yet to learn the hard lesson of patience with my self.

Its been so hard not to run the past 8 weeks.. I have to learn patience, to let my body heal.. all while at the same time I am learning that when I go back to running that I will have to have the patience to build up slowly.. as running too fast is what got me here.. I have to learn that things will not change overnight with my body and having the patience to pursavere through all that will get me a lot farther. I forget so easily that endurance and patience,... come together..

Colossians 1:10-12
10And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully 12giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[a] to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.

I've also realized that you don't really miss things until they are gone.. When i missed a workout when I coudl workout.. i didn't really mind.. I waslike.. oooh its okay, i'll make it up.. or there were days that i was like.. i do NOT want to workout today.. and skipped.. but now that I can't.. i crave to do so.. I can't wait until i can go back to some kind of workout.. I am still hoping to do an olympic distance triathalon this summer.. but it might not be till July now.. but I am okay with that..